Rambling thoughts on the Origen of grim metal bedlam.

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 “The universe is a madhouse and you are a patient.”


I am going to type this anticipating I will likely share it. Though it is more for my process of making myself make a choice. The choices have to with defining direction.


So I see polar opposite extremes on what I am aspiring to make this game on one end the anime space western influence (outlaw star, cowboy bebop and trigun). And other western science fiction (dune, the books of the new sun, and Ridley walker.) that is what I would say is the core influences… though it excludes some things which are really relevant like the tv shows like lexx and evangelion… it is a stew of contradictions….


Since I Was a kid I Wanted to make a game about exploring a fictional universe.  With a nonsense literature influenced perspective: Alice in wonder land is kind of a vibe I chase… I think it’s a over abundance of meaning. A kind of absurdity that is whimsical and tragic.


I think the seed is back when I Was a kid (before my mom took all my toys) I would make elaborate stories with figures. Playing with Martian metal, traveler miniatures. I think I had a complete set along with marauder chaos dwarves and all kinds of cool figures.


My uncle gave me a d100 game called space quest and I collected at the time 2nd and 1ed warhammer 40k books. That and a box set of traveler 1ed booklets.


He also gave me an old Commodore 64 I used to play bards tale, phantasy and ultima on. 


Though the wires are crossed in my memory and I can’t quite organize the time frame I must have between five and eight playing with the traveler miniatures. Then my mom an extreme religious phase where I would spend Halloween Laying in bed listening to her read the bible. I think I must have been thirteen or fourteen when I collected the war hammer and read the traveler and space quest.


It’s been a long time and doesn’t matter really.


So I then spent from about sixteen till I was twenty seven or eight working on a series of novellas called Dharma-discharge: or the chronicles and frenetic ravings of a manic anarchist.


It was a science fantasy series of novellas I think may have been demonically inspired and I regret the darkness of those books. I took a lot of the stuff from what I was working on and gave it a more God centered focus when he intervened in my life and I became born again.


In a strange way what I am trying to do with grim metal bedlam is something like a wrinkle in time, mashed up with Warhammer 40k.


And all my projects are interconnected with it… of two contradictory compulsions one is a desire to systemize and reduce while on the other hand I love nonsense and mystery. That kind of contradiction drives all my creativity.


Anyway sorry for wasting your time with this nonsense I’m just thinking out loud. I am stressed out and sometimes it helps to share.


Peace and love.


Be safe out there friends. 

   

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