The Sock-Monkey As Alone

Nicolas winding Refn said in a interview, "I am like the Ugly duckling" when asked to elaborate he said with little agitation "It becomes a swan." this will be a short post for anyone who is interested in the kind of emo post goth crap I share.  I want to be positive but am to reasonable about my own failures both aesthetically and as a personality to allow myself not to hate myself. I want to be a artist of some kind and have a drive to create I neither understand nor can seem to satisfy.  I may quit writing about my internal life after this post and just use this blog to share my bad writing and art. Not because I am in a better place but because venting does not help anymore.  anyways I love you all. be well and cling to you loved ones whether it be the family you were born with or the one you made for yourself. 

 

 

 Greed Hunter started off as a hex crawl with a large gamebook, then became a video game-like stardew valley meets spelunky. and is now becoming a predominantly solo co-op game inspired by (enhanced) advanced Heroquest, Warhammerquest (1995), and Blackstone fortress and though I have not played shadows and brimstone I have been studying the rules because it seems to be from the same cloth as the others. After almost four years of development of a setting now it is just about finding the right mechanisms to bring out the theme of the game. I had given up on making a game in the setting and was just playing with cannibalizing it for my novels and novellas. but I bought some blank components to play (enhanced) advanced heroquest and ended started modifying it because without the mini figures most of the game's workshop flavor was gone so decided to reskin the game to suit my setting I have created. now I have changed most of the combat systems and am really just relying