Insert the coin, exhale regrets.

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"And I'm working at trying to find a kind of language where I won't be so easily modulated by expectation."   -  Kathy Acker


"You will never be a novelist. You say more than you describe."
The voice is mine, even if it is with resistance that I accept it.
However, shattering monotony with, "and that is all I got."
The thought spirals into a vertigo of green and black.
"can you make a point that is new?" "that is not how the truth works."
so I spray paint on the eviction notice pinned to my door.
"F U" then think to myself, "that wasn't witty at all."
but what if I posted it on my landlord's window?
"The police would become involved," I say aloud.
then feeling like I have robbed myself of dignity.
I start the endeavor of creating a world where that doesn't matter.



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