The Sock-Monkey As Alone

  So here we are again internet and today our subject is on broad generalizations from a fuck boy who honestly doesn't give a shit about what a bunch of entitled fucks like you think and I will warn you this is a NC-17 post...so if your not interested in that kind of thing then I guess you are really not going to want to read this. In the beginning I was fucking an overweight young woman that was part Japanese. Long story short after she had a orgasm she said "my thighs need a break" so then I started getting head, this was not a bad day for me. But after awhile she still couldn't get me off so she said "I have to go." I pushed her head down again and we went for awhile more then she smiled and said "No really I need to go, I told my parents I would cook dinner tonight." I said "O.K." and proceeded to finish the job myself (with my hand!). Now here comes the point if you are going to vote for Donald Trump and you even think that I ...

So here I lay in my bed thinking about why I ever thought that having a conceptual reason for not practicing was a good idea. Or my love of capturing the moment through random improvisation of lyrics and the overall arrangement of a piece of music. I don't know honestly, to quote frank miller "I think with my dick." But I also have a tendency to fuck anything that moves and these two things led to me not fulfilling my potential as a artist. But I am now practicing a couple of hours a day on the guitar and taking my time to write more complex and thought out pieces of music. If this will have a impact on a man who is exiting his twenties kicking and screaming, I can't say. But God willing I live with shame so that I may be worthy of the gift.... what is the direction I am trying to go in slow crunchy doom metal that isn't limited by verse chorus structure. Melodic but intense if I could sell it as anything I guess I would say I want the music of metal without the ...

" I know your soul is not tainted even though you have been told so." - Papa. The horned beast comes creeping ounce again from the abyss, his eyes like jewels, with words perfumed with aging decay. And songs come forth as a bold middle finger to mediocrity and banality. To people who are willing to give there lives for a piece of ass, or the opportunity to show they are more ignorant then there brothers. When there has always been a better way then mindless sacrifice to ritual, of selfless selfishness sold as faith. And that way is the ghost, for he is. And he is who he is and he is what he is. A Nameless Ghoul said, "Everything started with a bunch of songs. We knew very early that to make this material work we needed to fulfill our dream of putting a horror show together with music." and my sweet dark fallen lord they have. They sing songs for the fallen the forgotten and the damned. In other words if your voting for trump then you probably can re...

Melodramatic, this is how I would describe myself. When things are not complex then you must alow yourself enjoy the simplicity of your favorite old songs. But what if one of those old songs is belief? (See I am already behaving melodramatic)! But no matter how you feel about something, how you behave decides your merit. And this is how I am with belief both in spiritual terms and non spiritual terms. I am always chasing the truth but refuse to let it set me fee. On the other hand however you can learn to use melodrama as more then just cheap theatrics. Thus is where I am at in my life. In not so many words I feel as if I have failed. More on allowing myself just follow the heads of the flock. common since says that I and I alone cane make myself in any way happy.  So I have taken the time to work on some things I have procrastinated around such as fixing up my blog and website so that all the information I have put out there is Interconnected. Even this humble thing I am atempting...

I am making myself take a break to try and raise the quality of my output. all the old songs will stay up and should be available  on iTunes and spottily soon. i will try to update this blog whenever i update my other one (that you can find a link to on my twitter). i will try to make all the songs available for download for free when i figure out the easiest way of doing this. i am going to work on my book and like i said take the time to actually write song as apposed to improvising them in thirty minutes and uploading them. i already have a some song titles but don't expect new music for at least a few months. but the next e.p. will be a deathrock/doom metal sounding sort of material. any one interested in jamming that has a interest in those two genres are encouraged too shoot me a message as i would like to find some people to work with.