Daily journal update

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 Been really depressed and showing symptoms of psychotic tendency’s which is never a good time.  My jaw on the left side of my face is swelling… didn’t notice till I shaved this morning. So a bit of a roughy start to today.


I have been thinking about the seeming apocalypse both personal and objective. I mean the blood moon and all that stuff sign of the end times.


And it dawned on me I wasn’t gaining anything from keeping myself writing a daily blog. I like writing I like sharing but we all run out of stuff to say. 


I have spent most the last week rereading john blanches autobiography and building mdf terrain for war games. I paired a couple of toy soldiers. 


The thing about the end is it only happens once… and none of know what side of it we are going to come out on. So it may very well be… just to pretend it’s not happening a find enjoyment and stress in their natural season.


I mean I am kinda of the games of life I am tired of paranoia and stress and often look forward to closure somedays.  But it want happen on my terms so I paint my little toys solders in my own little insignificant way. 


I mean every one else is marching forward who is to argue with them? 

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