Yeah, big deal, so what?

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 "I was born to bring trouble to wherever I am at." -Glen Danzig.

I feel like I am a failure. I feel like I am just the conclusion of many lives lived badly. Of life, Lives lived selfishly. I don't even know what I am saying. I have said so much, and so much of it should have been left unsaid.

I may say more, but I...would prefer to collapse into ellipses.  At least for tonight.


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