It becomes a Swan.

Nicolas winding Refn said in a interview, "I am like the Ugly duckling" when asked to elaborate he said with little agitation "It becomes a swan."

this will be a short post for anyone who is interested in the kind of emo post goth crap I share. 

I want to be positive but am to reasonable about my own failures both aesthetically and as a personality to allow myself not to hate myself. I want to be a artist of some kind and have a drive to create I neither understand nor can seem to satisfy. 

I may quit writing about my internal life after this post and just use this blog to share my bad writing and art. Not because I am in a better place but because venting does not help anymore. 

anyways I love you all. be well and cling to you loved ones whether it be the family you were born with or the one you made for yourself.