The Sock-Monkey As Alone

 I am getting close to forty... things ain't gone the way I wished they did. I thought I had to create when I was only making noise for myself. it was productive and healthy for me psychologically.     I am drawing lately, working on comics again.    I don't know what to say I been listening classic hip hop albums for five hours and now listening the love below by andre 3000.  I think when I had gone a week without food and fantasized about impressing DRE with my music... I really could not handle how delusional I was till maybe five minutes ago.   Music has been slowing down for me. I did what I did for better or worse. I made what I made over a thousand songs. Most people hate it. but I did my best.    be safe out there friends. peace and love. 

  I have been reading the 7 books in the catholic Bible missing from the Protestant Bible and playing retro games.   I don’t know why I feel obliged to write on this blog at five in the morning other than Luna (my pet cockatiel) is asleep so I can not make to much noise for the next few hours. I think I will start on lunar two eternal blue tonight. I have played the extended demo disc that came with vanguard bandits back in the working design days. I really loved it playing that demo disk stuck with me as one of my favorite video game memories even more than some actual game’s I have completed. And yes I have been thinking about the game since I got the pet bird… that I named after a character from a demo disc to a game I never completed. That is one of the stranger things about life. The things that stick with us, are not necessarily the things we had. Sometimes our aspirations carry as much weight as our experiences.  There are so many things I wished I had do...