The Sock-Monkey As Alone

                    I I waited in the lobby of the doctors' office for an appointment that I was always early for, but still somehow always waiting eagerly with anticipation to get over with. I am in love with a person and an idea. I am mentally ill, knowing that this is all a delusion, a construct of my subconscious mind. I idealize things I do not understand...but usually these people I put on a pedestal are beautiful in some form or the other.    Which is to say they are in opposition to what I feel I represent. But Sara is genuinely something unusual, something obtainable but always out of reach even when she is sitting a couple of feet from me.    The door in front of me opens, and the skinny Sara is smiling at me and says my name. I follow her back to her office sitting opposite from the chair she goes to after closing the door. "So how have you been?" s...

 This movie got me thinking about the glorification of geek culture and about the future. Full disclosure I have not read the book (yet! though I did enjoy the movie enough to add the book to my reading list.) but have really enjoyed the movie as a send-up too the geek subculture I consider myself part of. Is it a great movie? In my opinion it is a little on the silly side but has some great themes and undercurrents it never fully explores. But more on the subject of the future, do we really know what we are doing? If the future is VR: be it a matrix style body enhancement based cyberpunk dystopia or a bunch of idiots running on treadmills trying to out reference the rest of a irony driven culture in it's need to glorify the emotional bond we cultivate too what is still essentially commodities of a capitalist society that still feels it has a right to put a price tag on our dreams. The scary part about all of this is that their is no one putting a key for us to find in the game w...

                                                            “Birds born in a cage think flying is an illness.”                                                                    - Alejandro Jodorowsky Alejandro Jodorowsky was not a early influence of mine but is a major one. El-topo is my favorite film of all time. It has the ambiance of a three stooges skit with Salvador Dali or Max Ernst imagery. the dichotomy of slapstick/vaudeville dramatic vocabulary and the philosophical ravings an atheist mystic make for a truly unsettling contrast.  The violence an...